I am in the midst of a divorce. Divorces just suck on so many levels. This one is hitting a deeply seated belief that I don't have enough, am less than, am poor, and am alone.
I recognize that this belief is false. I've been working with it for a number of years now, and have had multiple embodied experiences that affirm the truth that I always have (and have always had) more than enough of what I need. These experiences are times when more of my cells have woken up to the truth of who I am. It has been this husband, who has invited me to deepen into my ability to receive and to have. He has been the one proclaiming how abundant we are, how there is more than enough and I get to partake in that more than enough!
Although more of my cells are waking up and leaning into this, there is a very young, fearful part, a handful of cells, that has yet to realize this truth fully.
This young, fearful part, this handful of cells trembles as I write, acknowledging the pain that accompanies this divorce. They were triggered by the divorce papers handed to me; they recoiled in fear when he "rescinded all offers" (when I didn't blindly comply with a request); they lost their breath when he cut off of my credit cards without ample notice or even having a conversation with me.
This young, fearful part, this handful of cells is trying to grab the steering wheel and drive me to safety. Safety to this part looks like not trusting anyone else, especially him; safety sounds like, "See? I knew it was true! Who was I to think I could ever have more than enough?"
Gently, oh so gently, my healthiest self that knows, just knows, my truth, comes beside the young, fearful part. Without making her wrong, my healthiest self holds her, rocks her and acknowledges her fear and the present pain that seems to confirm her fear. She tenderly picks her up, out of the driver's seat, and places her in a seat just down the row. Tucks her in to a soft blanket and lets her know she is taken care of.
And then my healthiest self made a vision board.
This vision board represents the embodied experience I desire to have: I have more than enough of all I need, and I rest in this knowing.
No hustle, no hurry, no fear that it isn't true.
The birds of the air and the flowers in the field do not labor or toil and yet are fed daily and clothed in splendor (my own take on that verse in Matthew).
I created this board in June, 2021. Now it is August. Each time I reflect on the vision that this board holds, I naturally take a deep breath. It is a gentle reminder to that young, fearful part, that she really is taken care of.
The truth, in this very moment, is that I absolutely have more than enough of what I need.
For this I am grateful.
Vision Boards are an empowering and powerful way to bring whatever it is that YOU desire to BE, DO, HAVE, or EXPERIENCE to life. They are a way to step forward and live your dream. Lots of people talk about them, fewer people create them, and even fewer people lean into the wisdom that they hold (especially when fear parts are driving the bus). If you would like to Exercise Your Soul by Creating a Vision Board, CLICK HERE to receive a Complimentary Copy of this chapter from my book. You'll receive support, inspiration and tips to create a clear vision, depict it pictorially and witness it coming to fruition in YOUR LIFE.
There is a Divine Wholeness underlying all of life. I claim this for myself and for others. When we Exercise Our Souls by Creating Vision Boards, we are harnessing this Divine energy for good in our lives. Will you join me?
With so much love for the journey,
Rachel Sartori is an Embodiment and Wholeness Coach. She is kick-ass and heart-centered whether she is showing up as a workshop/retreat facilitator, a private coach, a writer or a speaker. Rachel invites you to exercise your soul, and participate in the healing of your own heart and the world around you. With Rachel, all is welcome, all the time.
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